My daughter is my most precious joy, but her space in my heart is shared by my angelic son, Christopher. Here is where I got my inspiration for creating art after I experienced a tragic loss.
Creating Art After Loss
It’s been 11 years since I lost him, but he is still dear to my heart and will be forever. My baby boy went to be with the Lord when I was eight months pregnant. When I delivered him, we realized that he had a blood clot in the umbilical cord, and his little mouth was open. That’s a sight that no mother should ever have to see, and I will never forget.
I will always remember how it felt to hold him in my arms and smell his new baby scent that usually brings joy. But to me only brought sorrow on that day.
Losing him was so hard to bear. But I know that he’s at peace in Heaven with all of the other angel babies. Knowing that lightens my burden, but I still grieve for him and I always will. I believe that the connection between a mother and her child is everlasting. That love starts from the moment their heart starts beating, and I loved him with everything in me.
Even though his heart stopped beating too soon, his memory still beats in tune with my own heart. No matter what, I will always cherish the memories I have of him, his little kicks and jumps and cravings, and I know that one day I will be reunited with my first and only son.
I coped with his loss by creating art. My work has helped me process my grief and heal from it. I believe art has beauty in it because art is a representation of life, of the joys and sorrows that life brings. Being able to express my sorrow through my art has helped me to have a scar where there was once a gaping wound, and for that I am thankful.
More About My Art
I find peace in my art and comfort in knowing that I can express my emotions in beautiful, meaningful pieces. Click here to see my works.
In Loving Memory of:
Christopher K. Lewis Jr.
May 26, 2010.
Mommy misses you.